i freakin feel dat ________________!%*%*^#(^#*^# .

nvm.
hais.sighs sighs sighs.

the volleyball mems...
some kinda have alot of attitude.
euu noe H____ saw dat m_____0 kip snatchin my ball.
so i was right.
it wasnt my fault!
i keep hassistate bcus of m_____.
i don't know if i should stand there and do nothing or not.
but if i don't coach would problably scold ... and punish all.
sianz.
i don't feel like goin to next volleyball.
in the team. onli a few is good.
good citizen is good =DDDD XDDD!
even though the wanqi is the quiet girl in the team.
her attitude is the best. cus she dun show ani dumb b____ attitude to ppl.
and she dose talk in times too =D.
dun understand why lorhs.
me and huixin hit untill ppl.
they show attitude.. (EXCEPTIONALS DUN INVOLVE)!!
we say sorri.
they ignore.
they hit untill me...!
they nvr even sae a word and lalala!
dun understand at all.
i quite enjoy playing volleyball even though im not that pro.
but i have the crave to improve.
since coach wants to go back to combine.
i shall go ask the ppl dat goes good with me =D
hehs.
dhen decide on my mood xD
and decide shallllll iiieee go =DDDDD

....

Is appearance dat important...?
Is background so improtant...?
to me.
i think the greatest personality is the best.
though, i do pi ping ren.
but... i don't go dat FARRRR...
not like some ppl.
dun understand anithing.
at all.

heyy i saw this poem in my english test bk =DD
Don't walk infront of me, cus i may not always follow.
Don't walk behind of me, cus i may not always lead.
JUST walk beside me, and.. be my frrrriend =DD .
cool huh?! xD

hehs =D
so long nvr post.
so here is it.

XDD
todae hor veh wad sia.
nvm.
lets tlk about positive first =DD.
okayy...
todae is 'b' division free play =DDD WOOT!
and 'c' division training.
hmm..
for those hu dosen't know.
those in 'c' division is aged 12~13.
and 'b' is 14 +++++.
blabla.
and so todae must bao wo ji hui worhs
hahas.
no training = wrong no nid push ups.
= no requirements
= no opinions from coach
= FREE
= no preasure =D
hahas.
so todae ply untill veri fun.
now.
NEGAAAAVTIVVVVE. oO"
dat dumb D________ realii wad sia.
say let go. (infos provided by momo ren.)
everyone okayy we know she wants the ball.
let her take.
all let go hand.
dhen she let go hand.
WTH?
dhen...
wen the ball went near v______ and D______.
V______ sae-ED let go. (softlyy)
D______ sae let go (loudly).
Dhen V_______ heard, saw her hand.
Let goes her hand.
D________ lets go her hand cus she juz saw her hand.
dhen their 2 juz have a gap and the ball slip pass.
coach.
walao. scold V_____ ..... D____ no fault?!
wth?
then nvm leiis.
everytime someone says let go...
of cos the others put down their hands.
dhen D_______ does dat and put down her hands.
WTH?!
kb sia.
dhen hor still gt once dat e_____ told me dat.
she keep snatching others people ball.
wth?
hao lian ahh..
dhen wen the ball in the centre tell everyone let go.
half way let go herself?!
da pai leiis.
!!! ... dhen hor infront of coach wan act
qing lao.
wen the coach miao at her.
she kennot catch the ball in time.
(the ball nort THAT near her)
she purposely go want to hit and fall.
and missed oso.
dhen coach kip give the blame to everyone.
the coach wan train V____to be captain.
so what happened now is...
coach is eyeing on her to kip her up in the level.
so... somethings happens...
coach will onli think is hu?
HER!
HELL YA !
WTH RIGHT?!
damn la.
dat chou D_______.
everyone hate her like freaking hell.
actually i kip my eye one open one close.
some ppl alrdy hate her.
i juz nvm larhs.
i dun hate or like her.(juz dislike la =X)
but now i realli freaking hate her.
wakao.
dhen todae teacher compliment m___ & M_____
(e_____ told me) sae dat.
why they so good?
they gone through good training.
and sae dat see they so qin lao all come fer free playy.
(don't need to come)
i go cus i missed alot training i want to catch up with ppl
at my age. and xinman and angel helped me alot =D.
=D
n dhen. wen he sae dat.
e____ sae D_______ kip miao at us.
i was like huh?! means she coming fer free play at wed?
(nxt wk resume combine,this week no.)
im like OMG?!
dun wanna c her lorhs.
dhenn...its like so wad.
whyy she dun like last time kip dun come.
recently kip c her.
hais. sigh sigh sigh.
sian ahh.. i wanna learn hw to set sia (dunno hw to spell)
but teacher kip do underhand cus he sae underhand is used in common games for 80%.
nvm lor TT~

sianz.
now dat the volleyball cca has changed to wed fer 'b' divison..

its like so bored ._."
i more like my cca to be on mon.
since alrdy late realeased. more good dat dae cca.
wed not dat late marhs.
hais.
but oso good larhs now cca is on onli 1 dae. LOLS!
iie tink i every mondae go run hao lerhs.
but too bad have too run alone TT.
wishh someone not so lazy like the damn kailin.
wish she become fat =XX dhen she will go run with me =XX
xD im so badd.. buahaha
i wanna train my stamina.
no one wanna runn w' meee ='l
TT_________TT
hennngg hennng someone =/!!
so siannnz aniwayys. x.X!!
i wanna try my best not to slack and go run.
my stamina is deproving badly.
and i cant run fast bcus of dat... !! GRR
F5
CALM BLUE CALM ~.~
JYJY !!! =D

hais.
what even if i go to sec 2?
sianz
i cant even make it lor.
even if i go...
alot ppl goin ~.~
among my friends...
a few is going to (E)
and... according to their work they will made it.
so even if i do make it to sec 2.
it might be abit lenglui since my good friends r all moving ~.~
hais...
i may juz nvr make it aniways.
jiang lai hui zhe me yang .... wo ye bu dong . =/
hais.

missing my hp fer alrdy 1wk !! GRR..

after 1week and 3daes i finally getting my handphone back.
ive been using dat old and lousy old spare hp fer like1 week.
but it seems like a month for me.
so long...
its like so hard to type a full msg i hve to type two. or 3 for worse.
and ppl msgs r like link 1/3 or 1/2...
so fedd up.
finally getting it back.
i miss the muusic inside.
ive nvr misses music so long !!
kennot survive without music larhhs !!
the first ting i gort back my hp todae..
i will on music for the nxt 24hours. untill it low batt !!

oh ya recently hve been bz buahaha.
so sayonara soneni jane.

sianz. ytd sick nvr go skul...XD
heng todae bo get caught not passing up derh goal card xD
todae..
hmm.. euu noe hor i realli hate dat dumb teacher.
so black still wear black. step in classroom like bring in a sun ...
she contain with a sun in her.
mt teacher come in bring wind lor.
why cant the scince teacher bring in wind.
her lesson no matter gt sun or no.
is HOT SI DER.
rain .. still der same. aiyo...
oh n the mr calvin tan kns. call us do those angle things.
actually im good in angles. but he teach. = BORED
= i wan sleep. = no do =XX
lols.
oh and todae didnt go to volleyball.. =/
kept coughing. i think the teacher dun believe i sick =/
c mondae larh esther sae teacher like dun believe =/
aiya oso no use. cherrr oso dun giv attendance if iie tell her reason..
or even dun believe lorrrhs... =\
aiyo.
dhen wen to jurong entertainment since esther's mum is strict ltr question her or yi da dui. lols.
so she ask her friend the peishan too.. lols...
we still go run tgt.
cus she wan to train leg muscle...
LOLS still eat salad those stuff...
at least eat sandwich wad. more nutri...lols/
lai dat hw euu grow muscles. lols.
she wan her fats become muscles lols/
i last time oso hve leg muscle now become fats.
becus of some friends dun like to run yi da dui.
miss myy oldd active friends.
i wan back my old sporty self.
but of cos i still love sporttts =DDD
hmmm...
oh ya and a few daes. ago. mondae.we gt check up.
esther nid go scan for her _________ bone lols.
fer me..? not as yan zhong as her but alrdy abit _______.
the person call me swim to train my backbone or no time at home do exercise.
no use derh lar. lol
aniways esther actually duwan to go.
but since she noe about the incident lalalala.
that boy that mental hve probs.
esther sae she duwan like him the bone like dat so decided to go .
i was like o.o" lol?
and
i wan a bicycle =D XDD lols its end of the post la.

sayonara.

what r euu still doing here i sae SAYONARA.

oi. get lost la. SAYOONARAAAA ... =X

joys under drawings
sorrows under pictures
love under photos.

what am i doing with a pencil aniways?

Desperate clinging to life.
hais.

sayonara;

hais.
sighs men.

been wondering.
suspecting.

is my thirt sister ...
or should i sae "enermy"...

she seems to be able to come in or not..?
is she being able to know where the key is hiding from..?
telephone ringer been on...
things in the room like sauce decreasing through nobody touches it till someone suddenly wanted to realised. (future in-law).
in the house.
ppl rarely touch the phone.
cus is either handphone or msn.
calling oso use handphone.
wont use telephone.
so why?
the sauce placed there.
no ppl touched.
so why?
the room tv was hot.
so why ..???
nobody was in the rm.
i was in school.
sis at work.
mother work.
only she at home.
tv left off for like morning to afternoon.
so why?

fk la.
damn la.

bad mood jiu fa pi qi at me.
cb.
So what if she's older?
what if she's bigger..?
she got all the rights larhs?!
come home only know how to slam the door.
slam all the things around the kitchen.
ya la euu cook la.
i dun even like lor.
mum cook soup like 10k better than euu.
onli know how to fry fish and vegetable.
no souppy derhs...

hais..XD

the more i draw.
the more i request.
the more i do that.
the uglier i draw.

the more i improve.
the more i want.
the more and more i request.
but the result to turn out gets more messier.

the more i relax and draw.
it turns out nice.
then i start to want more.
i wan to improve more than tat.
and then.
i gort the bad result again.

why izzit always lai dat.
i dun understand.
but i cant stop the feeling of being happy to c my own drawing improve with my pair of hands.
while i draw.
i want more.
i want more than more.
coulden't explain the feeling.
but its like overjoyed. over excited.
filled with happiness.
but im still not happy.
i wan more and more.
i dun understand.
but i juz wanna request.

lols

todae gorts cip.

dhen its like FREEEEAKING HELLL
sae wad 5.30 realease ... gam puiii la.
6+++ dhen realease lorhs.

but dhen it was quite fun larhs.
i were in group 7 and i seperated wif all friends n went wif janice.
a friend friend at volleyball...
we took dunno wad da zhong pri skul ...
the students were like .. so small and CUTE lols.
now kids r getting smaller =XX hahas
and dhen it was like damn ... LOLS
our gp were quite fun and quite slacking =DD
and the students were veri playful ....
and there was a part where we go to eco pond. the students....
abuse the kelian plant XDDD
they took the plants by a leaf and swing it all around while draging dhem up and down and oso throw them back to the plant...
i was like -_- wont the leaf go ..........
if it really did i wonder whats their reactions O.o?
XDD
so evill lols. im so bad XDD
aniways lazy lerhs.
the other part leave to ur wild imagination and i shall leave here now =O bb!

Sister nag , mother nag, everybody nag nag nag ~

comon everybody NAG NAG NAG ~.~

Darn sis first think euu come home is not even talking or anything the question always is the same i oso can bei. oi i wan use computer .. or oi i ltr wan use OI OI OI onli noe hw to oi .

dhen call me do some chores at home i dont wan you blabla ... i ague bak euu sae i talk back mei da mei xiao...
iie hearin wad euu sae but not facing euu .. you sae i no respect , you YOURSELF no respect me. so wad im younger? means i no nid respect? i dun hve pride? only boys have pride mehs? onli euu hve pride mehs? PLEASE LARHS!!! study study study ..? is dat wad euu always wan sae to me...

i spent my time on computer to kip my mind away from all the words all the ____ words...
i juz wanna b wad i was small.. naive. ive always thinking dat i wasent suppose to exist. what would dying feel like?
juz like the anime nabari no ou ... like yoite ... the wish of dosen't wanna exist and avoiding death ... dosent wanna think anithing else but waste on a skill called 'kira' a skill dat exchanges ur life force to get control of humans flesh and blood.

existance .. what izzit for?

wen i was small i always nagged euu all to be at home... but everyone was always not to be seen...
always left me at night alone wif ahgirl (dog) at home. wen she barked. euu noe hw scared i was? no. at the morning ive always been called up and to get ready fer skul... all scram through the door. always finishes rdy n sit beside lonely little ah girl and pets it. . . its always us at home huh..? times out and leaves the house...
dhen euu all juz moved there and heere wen i reject. euu all ignore. left my friends 2-3times and left alone. wif new friends alittle besties. wif none childhood friend whom i missed so much and wif new backstabbed friends.

now.. wen ive grown to a teenager... i feel like always let the time stay like this. alone at home. peacefulness wif my ears open and clear n freee... from everything...
except a little friend whom wouldent hurt much but euu all to leavemealone.
why is friends more important then euu al ..? think urself. always sae they more important blablabla ... me wad? none ur business right... dhen sae wad ltr bei frens kidnapped or sell oso dunno. . . heyy heyy...
im not 3yr old kid. i noe hu to trust and whom i should'ent even folo.

family?
i long ago think none of them existed.
im juz linger around as i like..
i algued to get more freedom outside.
i algued to be a carefree bird outside.
not to b at home. not to b at skul.

even if i cried under my pillow. euu tot i was tired and eyes got red.
my fwen came to return comics even notice i cried wen i even denied.
i shout under my pillow cus nth to fa xie. (espicially all of euu all at home im stressed out) euu all think i zi high. nvm .. dis part goood.

i juz wish i had a dog like last time to be there wher i needed.
at least dog will never ever betray ur owner.
and will never ask you any questions.

i feel like leaving the whole house.
and they wanna move again. i sae i wan near here.
they move so far.. .. ..
im away from all of dhem again...
i will walk home alone again...
and its such a far path...
without anione to be there wif euu ...
...
nvm... ive alrdy had enuff .. get use to it.
wlk home alone again.
sae thousand of sayonara.

so tired.
so tired.
so tired.

and... still... have to study...
why care? im hopeless alrdy...

tsk.
i draw nice jealous untill wan tear my paper ...damn la
feel like slaping the person ._.
after i came bak fr recess my paper is like so "nice"
and was in a "good" condition ..
im gonna find out whose the person hu try not to purposly tear it and make him/her pay...
TSK leiis.
jealous ur business why bully my kelian derh foolscape jealous go tiao lou la.
muz be the 'act guai' boii

suspects... O.o
#1 F___________. 'act guai' (n ...)
#2 Y___________. 'jealous/dun like'
#3 X___________. 'disturb ppl'
#4 H___________. 'hand itchy'

#1 REASON _he tried to "NOT" purposly using force making my zip at the pencil case to b focibly torn n still left evidence on it on the table n its obviously dat its used wif force. (admit himself said it was not purposely...IT WAS ONLY A ACCIDENT) SUPER GREATEST SUSPECT !!! N my FRIEEEENDS ALL AGREEEs ..!!! (but may not b him)

#2 the whole class knows so i shuddup .. fer those not in my class... UR BAD

#3 everytime late fer skul ._." dat time hand itchy my drug abuse keychain been fold into half dhen since its useless liaos i .. (fold it the other way and torn it thrown fer now.) ETC greatest suspect of destroyin... but may not b _______my stuffs... SO... X.x"

#4 dun think his the one =D he veh keyan but dun do those stuffs =]

okaayyys...

now...YTD blog =D
this dumb ______ kaobei...sia
everytime bring other ppl wen going out wif me ...
henggg dat ______ drive her away...
but she everytime bring _________ dhen like pang seh wo...
at the bus ... WAIT ! lets make it ____L___ and ____T____
dhen fk la _____L____ tlk to _______T_______ dhen me? pangseh ...ED
dhen at west mall in the cinema ... _____L_____ mumble to ____T______ rather dhen me...
dhen i wan go comics collection .... ____T____ duwan go .. dhen _____L____ sae wait fer me ... at the end all bo go!!! knnb ... kbkb sibei sibu k'n'n buu L'b's'b C'c'b LARHS!...

but wen we went to comics island me and ____L____ can tlk liaos ... maybe cus we watch simiiller animes and rental comic shops has other country mangas dat __________to anime... E.G. Shugo chara !! OMG =OO !!

and fer ur infomation i didnt spell anithing on my post like F******* so no vulgarities =D fer those hu understand those *TOOOT* ur problem .. i dun understand dhem =D

soneni !
SAYONARA ~~