Sister nag , mother nag, everybody nag nag nag ~

comon everybody NAG NAG NAG ~.~

Darn sis first think euu come home is not even talking or anything the question always is the same i oso can bei. oi i wan use computer .. or oi i ltr wan use OI OI OI onli noe hw to oi .

dhen call me do some chores at home i dont wan you blabla ... i ague bak euu sae i talk back mei da mei xiao...
iie hearin wad euu sae but not facing euu .. you sae i no respect , you YOURSELF no respect me. so wad im younger? means i no nid respect? i dun hve pride? only boys have pride mehs? onli euu hve pride mehs? PLEASE LARHS!!! study study study ..? is dat wad euu always wan sae to me...

i spent my time on computer to kip my mind away from all the words all the ____ words...
i juz wanna b wad i was small.. naive. ive always thinking dat i wasent suppose to exist. what would dying feel like?
juz like the anime nabari no ou ... like yoite ... the wish of dosen't wanna exist and avoiding death ... dosent wanna think anithing else but waste on a skill called 'kira' a skill dat exchanges ur life force to get control of humans flesh and blood.

existance .. what izzit for?

wen i was small i always nagged euu all to be at home... but everyone was always not to be seen...
always left me at night alone wif ahgirl (dog) at home. wen she barked. euu noe hw scared i was? no. at the morning ive always been called up and to get ready fer skul... all scram through the door. always finishes rdy n sit beside lonely little ah girl and pets it. . . its always us at home huh..? times out and leaves the house...
dhen euu all juz moved there and heere wen i reject. euu all ignore. left my friends 2-3times and left alone. wif new friends alittle besties. wif none childhood friend whom i missed so much and wif new backstabbed friends.

now.. wen ive grown to a teenager... i feel like always let the time stay like this. alone at home. peacefulness wif my ears open and clear n freee... from everything...
except a little friend whom wouldent hurt much but euu all to leavemealone.
why is friends more important then euu al ..? think urself. always sae they more important blablabla ... me wad? none ur business right... dhen sae wad ltr bei frens kidnapped or sell oso dunno. . . heyy heyy...
im not 3yr old kid. i noe hu to trust and whom i should'ent even folo.

family?
i long ago think none of them existed.
im juz linger around as i like..
i algued to get more freedom outside.
i algued to be a carefree bird outside.
not to b at home. not to b at skul.

even if i cried under my pillow. euu tot i was tired and eyes got red.
my fwen came to return comics even notice i cried wen i even denied.
i shout under my pillow cus nth to fa xie. (espicially all of euu all at home im stressed out) euu all think i zi high. nvm .. dis part goood.

i juz wish i had a dog like last time to be there wher i needed.
at least dog will never ever betray ur owner.
and will never ask you any questions.

i feel like leaving the whole house.
and they wanna move again. i sae i wan near here.
they move so far.. .. ..
im away from all of dhem again...
i will walk home alone again...
and its such a far path...
without anione to be there wif euu ...
...
nvm... ive alrdy had enuff .. get use to it.
wlk home alone again.
sae thousand of sayonara.

so tired.
so tired.
so tired.

and... still... have to study...
why care? im hopeless alrdy...