*edited* LOL
todae is such a unpleasent dae
my hope is dimmin and goin away fr the light of hope and help
and is cryin out fer the darkness once again*.
lets start me.
me.
i retained. sec 1.
i decided so hard and finally wantin to change.
myself.
wanna go poly. cus i wanna be like my er jie.
but.
What i didnt expect happened to me.
once again.
my mind always thought.
why does ppl always win the war
why does ppl always hve wad they wanted
but onli mie will be so far away fr wad i want to reach for.
my heart cries out fer the dark.
todae.
the results of the cca is out. ive joined table tennis my fwen had in volleyball. but why mi alone
im always the most unique and outstandin fr ppl...
The outstandin i meant is more different fr other ppl... im like a trapped bird free* from the cage but *where i do not know where should i fly to.
i rather goin cross country or infoccom club
or GB at ther grills..untill freakin tired/hard/strict (but..not campin!)
wish i can go to volleyball. why my friends can in and ive cant. hais! im always the one bad at somthing
but i realii reallii realli! interested in volleyball tat dae we saw them traininqq..it was so hard but ive became MORE MORE and more interested in it.
i lost total hope.
i think i will retained or transfer or even bei expel.
since i lost hope of studin ani longer.. why such a thing affects me? tis is why
Why? points..*
*1st. i dun wanna go table tennis
2nd.i go oso at ther stand no intrest of learning it.
3rd.low points. bo points. hw? >> sec 5 graduated. >> no nid go JC/poly u get lost liaos. ***
*sighs*
hais. wad should i do..
i might juz better die off...
My hopes has sink to the bottom of the ocean once again and again
Workin hw hard is pointless no matter how is useless
Can juz anione help miee to the darkness?
my heart has cried to the dark once again...tis time is bleedin harder and cryin out louder
can i ever joined the darkness? T.T
the light is no use..
the light i lit up in my heart is dimmed once again
surround by darkness my heart has once again thrown to the darkness of sorrows/darkness and hatred and of cus lonliness of ppl not understandinqq me..
this is juz tooomuch.. im So usless doinqq anithing
pointless doin everything.
juz a little thing would make mi feel down.
i juz dunnoe why..
my heart bleeds hardly surrounds by the darkness i cr8ed around.
my family will disappoint in mi once again. and force mi like wad they use to.
im so useless .. wads the point?
my dear rayen and huiwen i apologise.. u all tried so hard to pull mi out. and i did try to get away
but tis small little cca thing can affects me thinkin so much.
sry guys.
i juz hve to say.
its pointless.
its useless.
im jus a stupiid liittle stubbon gal..
ive drowned again.. will i ever be save?
my story is so complicated.
is like a fairy tale which never have a gud endin.
